Within you

With all of you....stay true ...stay pure

Like the fall of a brand new snow

A crystal clear stream that sparkles on a bright summer day

Let your love flow like the river that opens to the sea...

Bathe yourself in sage--washing away all negativity

Lay a path of roses to walk upon in the sweetness of passion, peace and simplicity.

Open wide your arms--facing the breeze and all that comes and goes

Stay brave--with both feet firmly planted in the ground--remember your roots....

And breathe.

Like a wave flowing ever so gracefully that says hello to the sand...

You are not your thoughts,

The very essence of you is the observer of your thoughts

You are the beauty within....the sparkle in your eye....the subconscious

What power lies within you...you create your reality

One with the Universe...

A cosmic connection with all things...

Always making transformations...beginning, middle and end, only to begin again....

Embrace your light.

Know the truth and release all that is unlike love and breathe....

And breathe again...

Like a wave.

2009/JP

I am beautiful, and I am free

I am everything I choose to be

I am stronger then you will ever know

I am the One who is in control.

I am brave as I stand to bare the storms

I am free as I feel the wind through my hair

I am alive, as I survived the odds

I am one who is still here, having nothing to fear.

I am insecure and I shake, but I do not break

I am sad, and I cry, but I stake my claim

I am angry, and I feel the heat in my eyes

I am One creative expression of life.

6/17/09

JP

My breath, a wave, invisible yet powerful. Deep within an invisble spirit is alive so I am told. I am my spirit just as I am my breath. I am a wave. I am alive. I survived. I breathe in the knowing, with the tender delicate air freely, and I let go without thought and yet with thoughts of grace and ease becoming one with the breeze--it awakens my senses to take a fuller deeper breath as it is very cold. It fills me up as if to inflate my body like a life support device that has been thrown out to sea. My breath is not invisible today; it forms a haze directly in front of me--becoming one with the breeze, and sends me a reminder that I am here, and I am alive and thats truth.

12-23-08

by J.P.

As if I'd slept a thousand years under the frozen ground I wake to fresh soil and a new season. My old dying roots have begun to wither and break away, giving birth to the new. I, the red rose with all my thorns, and silk crimson petals and bright green foliage, rise and awaken through the sacred earth anticipating with joy my introduction to the sun and the wind, and to the hummingbirds and butterfly's to feed upon my nectar. Raindrops tenderly fall from the brilliant clouds above and upon me to console me, to comfort me, washing away the battered existence of my yesterdays, and nourishing the very essence of my being with warmth and welcome. I give celebration to this day, and I open myself and am entered by a wave of vibrant light. This is the joy, the slow awakening into blissful moments as one by one my petals open, as the fist that held tight the secrets of my lost innocence, all that has imprisoned me, no longer holds me. I now let go of the past and release the voice and fragrance of my spirit, my being.

As I release my fragrance, my richness rides the wave of the gentle breeze for all to know. In a moment, I open my heart and light descends, fills me and passes through like a gentle wave in the sea, slowly tracing and healing every cell in my stem and within each delicate red petal--my beauty is reflected perfectly under a canopy of heavenly blue light. A powerful surge of energy engulfs me, soothes me, enlightens me. I, the rose receive, as the very core of my essence mixes with warmth and hope and joy. I am that spirit filled with light reflected in the world under a canopy of the Universe riding a blanket of stars, and I arrive content within myself. I, the rose, bold and beautiful, hardy and resistant, rise to take my place on this sacred ground. In vibrancy, I marvel the wave of my inner knowing, at myself and the things of this beautiful earth.

By J.P. October 20, 2008

Here I am like a flower baring the bitter thrashing wind

The rain beating down with no mercy upon my battered stem

With each drop I feel the sting penetrate deep within

But still I stand; here I am.

Lightening bolts shoot across the sky; thunder roars in anger

The clouds cast a deathly image; a mighty beast in hunger

My petals bow in shame and fear; most have lost their color

But still I stand; here I am.

A forbidden grief engulfs me, and a petal meets the ground

Slowly dying, my thorns scream for justice; a voice with no sound

The clouds cover the sky inviting raging spiraling winds

But still I stand; here I am.

Stinging stabbing rain slices through me as the forbidden grief floods the earth and turns to rage

Digging further into the core my roots cling for life; a life without pain

The ground has turned to mush and a deadly silence takes over my entire being

But still I stand, here I am.

Lightening strikes near me to give validation of the forbidden and unforgiven

I bend to horrific torture, but I do not break as the storm begins to die

A full moon appears and casts its glow upon me to comfort and heal my embedded wounds

She says to me, "I hear your voice; I see your light"

I still stand; here I am I say...this is my life!

By J.P

2008

You don't know me that well, but I am your higher self, your subconscious mind.

I know you're skeptical, afraid, but within you I dwell.

Past your thoughts and ideas. Past your fears, nightmares and scary images of your past.

Like a wave in an ocean, I radiate through every cell in your mind, and body.

If you look in your eyes you will see the sparkle of my existence....waiting patiently for you to notice me.....waiting with unconditional love for you to accept me and embrace me.

Let me enter your conscious mind, and together we can make great things happen.

I know you have been through a lot of turmoil, and you feel alone and deserted, and doubtful, afraid, but I live in you, and I love you.

Like a surge of energy waiting to be released; you know you feel me in the gentle breeze upon your face, and in your heart as you stand firm on the ground with arms open wide.

You see me flow in the waters, as they ripple and wave, and in the graceful movements of dolphins and hummingbirds.

Closing your eyes and imagining their spirit wave, their energy, their power--together you connect as your spirits blend and radiate through the other becoming as one in the Universe.

You feel the awakening; the gentle reminder of groundedness, and your sense of connection to your mother earth upon your skin, and in the tears of grief you hide,

as the wind dries to console and the sun sends comforting waves of unconditional acceptance and love; you are not alone.

Your mother cries with you as the rain drops fall upon your face, and sends a moment of refreshment, and clarity as the old washes away; making room for the new.

You want to fly the sky, and feel free, liberated and justified, and you do when you feel the energy of an eagle.

You want to feel at peace, and exerience simplicity and inner calmness and you do as the dove becomes you.

You want to be mighty, courageous and brave, and you are as you feel the spirit of the horse form a wave through your veins.

You want to be guided, and keen, sharp and prepared, and you are as the energy of the wolf flows through you.

You want to feel alive and well, free to experience emotions as they surface, and accepting of your femininity that has been disregarded by you and others, and you do when you dance with the dolphins under the sea.

You want to find your voice and true self through all of the muck, and you are as you embrace the precious hummingbird and her powerful fluttering wings.

Know that I am here, I am the sparkle of your Universe, and together we can ride this wave

Together freedomflys....

If only for a moment in your mind.

By J.P. October 19, 2008

What do you see when you look at me?

What do you think when you think of me?

Do you see the storms of destruction in my eyes?

Can you see past the reality that your own yesterdays define?

Why judge me, and why have so many turned their backs on me in this life?

All of these words and thoughts in my head

All of the storms I have weathered and continue to bare

All of my hopes and dreams I have hidden deep within me

Years of oppression and violations, abandonment and betrayal

A battle that has made me bitter as the darkness closes in

Afraid to give and receive...I peer out my half opened blinds

If anybody is out there, can you hear me on this night?

The moon glows a radiant yellow against the dark skies

The stars gain my attention as they dance, sparkle and shine

While the trees bend and the breeze howls a sad song

Life continues without me...

Why has this happened, a life like mine should never be.

A murdered childhood, and an adult life living in chains

Silenced by the predators of the night...No justice, no voice, no choice

Does anybody care....is anything out there I cry bitter tears

I have nothing left to believe in, are you out there?

A tiny voice whispers tired words to me and catches me by surprise

Do you not feel me in your body, she silently cries?

Why do you deny to hear the beating drums at your hearts door?

I am the little girl you use to be that you continue to deny

A child you hold prisoner from the light.

Nobody to hold me or keep me safe, not even you

Why do you turn your back on me too?

Where is this warrior you write and speak of that battles the storms?

You protect your other children, whats wrong with me?

I am the one who needs you now, please open your hearts door.

Listen to the beating of my drums, I live, I breathe.

I am only a little girl, but I can show you how to fly

I can help you learn to play and dance, and spread your wings if you would only let me try

We could sore above the snowy white clouds with eagles upon the breeze

I could show you a world where hummingbirds transforms into fairies.

Ashes to beauty.

Together we could make a difference. Why can't you believe?

Together we could reclaim our lives; open your eyes you'll see

Together, you and I...

Can you hear me in the breeze tonight?

I lower my head in shame, such a battle I have fought my whole life

No one has heard me either as they took away my rights

But yes, I hear you loud and clear, more often then not

I apologize from the depths of me for not listening to your call

Such a precious child you were, this was not your fault.

You deserve a mother who would proclaim a war for you

A mother who would form an army to defend your honor and dignity

To defend everything about you since the deflowering in your youth

There was no justice served, and such vengeance--afraid to let it loose

I've been climbing mountains my whole life, running from my truth.

But you and me are the sound of one beating drum she cries in whisper

Please don't run away anymore...its getting cold down here

The nights are scary and it gets frightening in the dark

My spirit, my breath, like a wave--needs to live in your heart.

With tears and without thought my hand naturally finds its way to my chest and gently pats my heart

As if to reassure her, that the door is open and she is safe to enter now

This is a place that will keep her safe and protected and where I give her a voice

A place where I give us justice, and where no one else can enter unless it is my choice.

By J.P 2009

It's a beautiful fall morning and the wind is slightly blowing

The colors are so bright and bold; the yellow's, the browns, the red's, the gold's

The morning sun is out to greet you and the heavenly sky is so blue

Not a cloud to be seen for miles...it's just your higher power and you.

You take a deep breath in and slowly let it go

Breathing in again...taking all this beauty in....

Everywhere you look there is freedom to be found

You stop look and listen and hear nature's precious sounds.

The birds are singing to you on this morn wishing you a good day

this place where you stand; you know you are safe

you can feel it in your heart, you can feel in your soul

Each step you take; you smile; you are in control.

Taking another deep breath you begin to walk through the field

the grass reaches your knees and sways back and forth with the gentle breeze

It looks as if it is forming a wave and you take a deep breath; you smile

This really is the most amazing place you have seen in a while.

You continue to walk through the field and the breeze is blowing your hair

It caresses your face...embraces your body...you feel safe here

With each moment, with each step you take, you know you are walking in faith

Walking in peace and with no ounce of fear.

You can feel the ground below your feet and hear the grass harmonizing with the wind

And you notice how the grass does not break...only bends

The path behind you is slowly fading as you watch the grass gently fall back into place

You know in your heart you are making a new path today.

You smile, and begin to feel the sun shine a little warmer on your back, and you look up and straight ahead

You can see rows and rows of trees and many colors; purple, pink, yellow and red

They are flowers that you see and your heart beats faster and so do your feet

You are eager to see what lies within this forest of trees.

You notice the flowers appear to be dancing, and your curiosity builds to its highest

Taking one more step, the flowers open up and so do the wings of hummingbirds and butterflies

Surrounding all sides of you is a sound like no other, and the sky hums, and fills with butterflies like a cloud of swirling colors

Purple, green, pink, blue, red and white.

You are in awe, simply amazed; the sound of hummingbird wings is powerful, so liberating and free

Nothing and no one can take this away from you, never, this place belongs to you and you breathe

Knowing this, believing this, feeling this deep within the essence of you, a tear begins to form

Could this be a place where my justice and liberty is born?

Staying mindful of where you are, and watching the hummingbirds and butterflies gracefully fly the sky

You smile and begin to walk a little further in search of this mighty sound you hear

You notice how the scent of the flowers is still lingering in the air, and the sun still shines

This moment belongs to you...and in this moment you know you are alive.

Unpleasant memories begin to fill your mind, but staying mindful, you bring your attention back to nature's scent and beauty

Closing your eyes to fill the breeze, your hair slowly speaks to the wind like the blades of grass

You take a deep breathe and remember you are not alone on this journey, not today

You are feeling connected; body, heart, soul and mind; you set the pace.

You look around you, and your imagination begins to run wild as the field fills with wonder

Then you see her, standing with such grace and beauty, freedom and power

A star --with a white coat of fur, stands and waits for you to go for a ride

You walk up to her...remembering the many times she taught your spirit to fly.

You begin to hear the sound of rushing water...it's calling you....and sounds so strong, so mighty...so amazing to you

Climbing upon your horses bareback, just like it use to be...Star knows just what to do

Like the wind, she begins to run free in a field and you open your arms to bare your face to the sun

Taking it all....you feel the power, the love, the safety and trust

How amazing this moment is...your new life has just begun.

Finally arriving at the edge of the forest you notice a clearing between three trees

It reminds you of the promise you made on this journey to find your freedom, your truth, your peace.

Slowly climbing off of Star....your eagerness to walk this path fills you up with anticipation and joy

You take your hand to part the limbs and staying mindful of your breath, you breathe in and let go

The air is full of peace...your horse....and such sweetness from the wild flowers and the freshness of water nearby

You take another deep deep breath...taking it all in...you love it here...you sigh

With each step you take you imagine what it would feel like if you had your own wings...to fly.

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I couldn't finish that imagery on that day, but a couple of months later I did....my imageries are a continued process.... It is below....

In one moment, I can hear the rush of a calming waterfall meeting a small pool of crystal clear blue water

It speaks a language only I can hear, or see and smell, touch and taste

The sound draws me closer to touch its mighty wonder in one moment suspended in time

A time where nothing exists, only me and a place where the water comes to life.

Life doesn't feel safe, such betrayal and pain; but in this moment--it tells me all is okay

I stand near the edge of clarity to watch the water pour and ripple and circle around my feet

The coolness awakens my sense of courage and reminds me I am still here

In one moment where I've got all I need; there is nothing to fear.

Tears fill my eyes-- the weight in my chest feels heavy-- a gentle breeze embraces my face

Blowing back my hair ever so calm and speaking a whisper; leaving an imprint on my broken heart

Feelings burn and fill me up from head to toe, and I bend to introduce myself to the ripples that hold me

In one moment where the water speaks.

Lifting the water to my face, it runs through my fingers and so does an amazing energy

It slowly circles around the pain within--like the slow current of warm light surfing on a gentle wave

I take a deep breath, and can feel a connection form between us, and every pore and cell of my being opens up to allow myself to let go

I splash its essence upon my face and take everything in as deep as it can dive

In one moment I feel as if I can fly through the side of the mountain; this is my life I cry.

I can feel the warmth of the sun fall upon my back, and illuminating colors begin to dance around my body

Shades of purple, pink and yellow blend and sway back and forth as they become one with the ripples of blue

The air is so fresh and I can smell hope and hear the gentle words of the waterfall caress my wounds

In one moment where the blue reveals my truth.

A reflection looks back at me; a woman I haven't known, a child I haven't wanted to know

Her eyes speak a story only the waterfall hears and the sun and the wind embrace

I've never seen this before, and how pathetic, but then the ground shakes beneath me as if to bring me back

In one moment I hear a tiny voice within say please 'be brave', she asks.

The waterfall roars, the colors spin, and the wind speeds through the air causing the water to wave

The sun casts its rays across the waters and through me; a fog forms as the coolness meets the heat

My body falls before me, and my tears become one with the water and I watch the ripples grow and slowly fade away

It tells me this will pass, and I accept as I pull the water closer to me; I don't want to ever leave

In one moment I don't have too, the water always hears me, and together we breathe.

Caught in one moment a swift motion darts in front of me taking me by surprise

I look all around me; to my left and then back to my right

Catching the motion again, my eyes follow it's presence to the edge of a tree up high

In one moment a hummingbird flashes before my eyes.

Such gracefulness and beauty to watch her flutter and fly so fast and free

Just a little red around her neck, and a touch of white against her emerald green

Like a diamond perfectly laid in a ring, she sparkles with the sun as her wings hum a melody

In one moment I capture serenity in her precious tiny wings.

The gentle breeze finds my face, and my curosity builds to where she lives

I take a deep breathe in, and slowly let it go, keeping my focus on the path before me

She leads me to a place behind the waterfall, deep within the core of it's magnificant birth

In one moment I am in my heaven surrounded by a thousand hummingbirds.

I cry; their presence is healing, simply breath taking, and their sound is so mighty, so empowering, so energizing, so free

The colors all around me are bright and bold, vibrant and brillantly sketched in stones and trees

I welcome this new sunshine of transformation and joy into my life as I feel the earth tickle my feet,

I hear my heart beat a brand new song; I know I breathe and am alive

In one moment I am reborn with my own pair of wings; freedomflys.

By J.P.

2008